Lost count of time....

 30 days, went by to fast and the last two weeks I kind of lost track. But it was fun.
 My conclusion is, this is not the time to fokus on weightloss for me.

Im perfectly happy with being under my before birthweight, I should be more then happy to be there, im not sure why I wanted to change it, in the first place. Maybe thats the reason why nothing really happend :) It was a kind of weird focus right now in my life, there is more important things right now, but the thing is, it helped me to get back on my feet again in general. It made me think about what is really important. I might not be super skinny, but at least im normal weigt and not fat either. I have to live with what I got, its really good enough and focus on the things I eat, by this I mean, just eat healthy right :)

And im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ready for spring and summer time, it will diffently help on the energy level!

4 days I will be on vacation with my family up north, i a summer house, its kind of like summer, for that I got new sandals today, HEY, I better be prepared, summer is going to be HOT!

Run baby Run

I almost forgot how good it feels to run, winter has been to snowvy for me to get out with the running stroller, tecnically it has a flat tire to, but that can be fixed. Oh well, 3 nightshifts are over and im pretty happy about that. But im still sitting with a puffed up belly and tired eyes!

Time is an issue when I have nightshifts and sometimes I think its a matter of survivel in those days. I so blessed with a special friend who sleeps at my house when im working and a sister who babysits in the daytime, my mom and dad helps to. So everything is going to be allright, its just not fun when its going on.

The feeling of spring helps though, its april now, be careful, (it means aprilsfools day to) Sun has been shining, snow will be gone soon, birds are shining and going outside doesnt feel like living on the Northpole anymore. And there is free icecream for the kids at the habor, im just saying!

 

The 30 days are almost over, I can not tell you it went like it should, but I learned again, alot about myself and being truth to what my body tells me, realise that I have limits and that time is short, when you are a single mom )

 

 

Have a runny day!

More Glutenfree

Today I tried a couple of recipes, that I have been wanting to try for a long time.

Glutenfree pancakes

1/2 liter soy or rice milk

350 grams flour (made out of riceflour, buckwheat, millet or quinoa flour) you can mix all of the flours, at least two together.

4 eggs

1/2 tsp salt

150 grams of shredded squash. (you can replace this with any other veggie you might like)

 

Stir the flour into the milk

Stir in the eggs, one by one

Add the squash

Bake the pancakes in a pan using a small amount of cocoanutoil

They are really good...

I imagine that you can use the recipe and add sugar to make them sweeter, leave out the squash and add bananas :)

 

 

I didnt think it was possible to make a good tasting glutenfree whitebread, but it is!

450 gram/16oz White bread flour ( glutenfree)

1/2 tsp salt

2 tsp Ouick yeast

2 tbsp Sugar

325 ml warm milk

2 Eggs

1 tsp vinegar ( I left this out)

6 tbsp Oil ( I used Olive oil)

 

1. Mix together the flour, salt, yeast and sugar

2. In a large bowl beat in the milk, vinegar and eggs

3. Add the flour and mix to a form sticky dough

4. Continue mixing adding the oil

5. Place the dough in a oiled 1 kg/2pounds bread tin, cover and leave to rise for 1 hour

6. Bake in a preheated owen for 40-45 mins

 

My stomach feels good, really good, but im a little tired, mostly because Im about to work nights and I really dont have the energy to do so :) Im lucky though, I dont have alot of shifts, so I just have to survive this weekend, then it will be may, before I have to work weekend ot nights again!

Chocolate and Bread

My biggest crawings are chocolate and bread. I admit it and its really bad.

So I have to find a way thats better for me to survive the really bad periods of the month, to do better and feel better. Eating to much gluten gives me the puffy eyes and its makes me tired, weird and my belly looks like a ballon trying to digest the gluten, sigh!!! So I went to the health store today, desided that I had to try the glutenfree way again. Im sorry if the recipes doesnt make sence, but its really difficult to translate a recipe actually :) LOL, just ask if you have any doubts.

 

Remember eating glutenfree, doesnt mean the calories are lower!!!

I tried baking my favorite flatbread recipe again, it was better then I thought, but I might have to chnage the flour I used, I was kind of in a hurry when I bought it in the healthstore.

The recipe for this is:

1 dl Pumpkin seeds

1 dl sesame seeds

1 dl Oats

1 dl Linseeds

1 dl sunflower seeds

3 1/2 dl gluten free flour

2 teaspoons salt

1 teaspoon baking powder

1 dl Olive oil

2 dl water

 

 

 Mix all the seeds, the flower, salt, baking powder together. Mix in the water and the oil. Its going to be a little sticky, thats the way it is. The thickness of the flatness o the bread depends on how you like to eat it. I like a little thicker pieces. I use baking paper, I pout the dough in one piece of baking paper, and then I press the dough out on the bakingrack with another piece of bakingpaper on top, so it doesnt stick on my fingers.
I bake the flat bread in the owen for 20-25 minuts (depending on the thickness again) at 200 C./400 F

Glutenfree Brownies

 

This is a really good recipe, again, the flower was not perfect, but it still tasted really yummi

 

The Glutenfree Baking recipe is:

 

150 gram dark chocolate

130 gram of butter

200 gram sugar

2 eggs

1 dl glutenfree flour

50 gram almonds and 50 gram walnuts ( you can use any kind of nuts you desire) Blend them really well, or you can use bigger pieces if you like.

1/2 teaspoon cinnamon

1/4 teaspoon salt

 

Melt the dark chocolate over water ( im not 100 procent sure what it is called in english, but you put water in a pot, then you put in another pot with the chocolate inside that one, warm up the water and then the chocolate melts) Double boiler :)

Mix sugar and butter, till its white and creamy, stir in one egg at the time, mix well. Stir in the chocolate slowly. Stir in cinnamon and salt. Stir in the nut mix as the last part.

Bake at 175 c./350 F for 30 minuts and let it sit in the owen with the heat turned off for 10 minuts.

 

Enjoy....

 

I can tell you this evening, im already feeling alot better, my stomach is not looking or feeling like a ballon and I have a little more energy.

 

 

 

I wonder

 I often wonder, just how other people get the motivation to do things and I often ask them what gives them the drive to go for something, or if they did something amazing, I really wonder, what is it that makes that person different then the rest, who wants to do something, always talks about it, but never tries. And I wonder if its the most talented people who really never gets there, something is stopping them, they dont even know themselves what it is.
I watched a TV program about a danish author, I never read his books, because they didnt catch me, but im going to read them now. The drive, the way he looked at life, was so inspiring that I just have to read one book or more. I always been a book person, when I was younger in school, I was always one of the fasted readers, they even tested me, to see if I lied about the time I took to read a book or a page, but I rememered the stuff I was reading to. And I almost forgot about the joy of reading a book in todays kaos of kindles, computers, ipads and other electronics. I like my books, most of them are still in the states, and it makes me sad, but im going to bring them home, one by one, when ever im there.
Back to motivation, im still wondering, what drives you to keep moving and what stops you from doing what you really want, I believe there is always an explanation, I dont really believe in excuses, I cant use them to anything at all.
I have been writing this block everyday now for a while and im thinking its kind of fun to do so. I really enjoy it, even though I look at my computer sometimes and wonder (again) what do I want to write today.

My last week, didnt go completely as a wanted it to go, but hey, tomorrow is monday, its the perfect day to try and make life better :)

A different approach

 I rather die trying then regretting, right?
 My father once told me: if you have doubts, do it anyway. Sometimes I think he regrets telling me that. Im not sure when we had that conversation, but I often use those words when I have to make a decision about something.
 If I combine the 2 sentences, it kind of makes the frame of how I live my life. I want to try everything before I can tell, hey, it didnt work, or hey, this is great, I did it. Both ways no matter how you twist or turn it, is very important for me in my life. Both ways loosing or winning, gives me a lesson in life. The funny things is that I often discover, its not the goal that gives me the lesson, its on the way, the road, the travel, the flight, the people, everything else but the actual goal, that is teaching me what there is to learn. If I stumble, I get up, learn, keep going, maybe not in the same direction, but I keep going. One doenst go without the other, I need the goal to keep going, I need the road to get to the goal.

 Here I am at day 19, I learned, that hormones are really difficult to control, and im not sure if I want to control them. Not that I want to give in and go crazy, but really, lets just face the facts, a different approach on what healthy life style is for my body, is the way to go. So cutting down on calories might be ok, excercise might be ok, but with the life that I have right now, almost never getting a break from either work or a day just to myself, it seems like an almost impossible thing to do...
There is so many things I want to do, but they just have to wait a little, until I find my way in life in generel.

Small steps everyday, listening to what i really need and remembering what worked before will probaly be the way to go. I really need energy right now, not cutting down on it.
Next week im trying gluten free bread, brownies and porridge, healthy oils and smooties. It worked before, so I wont "puke" over the carrots or feel hungry like almost every 15 minuts, its to stressfull for me right now :) Remembering its about healthy living, giving my body energy, focus on something else then sitting home being sad on a saturday evening.

Hope you are having fun out there tonight...

All I have to say is....

 All I have to say is, day 17 didnt go down in history :) LOL

 Im over and out, tired and I have to work alllll weekend. See you on the other side.

 P

Food and Friends

Today was a great day. I started the day going to the gym, running for 30 mins, without pain in my hips or legs in general. No problems at all :) Yeah. Worked out for about 30 minuts more, squats, some yoga, streches, abs... And then my dearest friend, send my a picture of a gluten free brownie invitaion... Seriously, what to do, what to do... I had coffee and the most amazing brownie. Yummi...

 

Diet wise, im still waiting for another plan. Im having some problems with gluten, I had problems before, so im trying to find other ways to eat bread. I cant  be without bread. The worst thing that happens if I eat to much is that my eyes gets really swollen, I know it sounds weird, but everytime I do eat to much gluten, which I did yesterday, I look like someone who has been in a fight the next day. I have to hide behind sunglasses not to scare people....

GYMTIME!!!

 

Limits, excercise, hills and paleofood

Todays excercise, was like any other day, biking on my Christinia bike around in the city, dropping off/picking up little peanut, grocery shopping, seeing friends and back home again. You might think yeah right, but if you know just a little about my town, you will know there is some really good hills here, so you actually get exercise from biking around every day :) I call it free excercise.

Dinner today was really simple, I love paleo style lasagne, its so easy and really good for you. Its basicly just a lasagne, no pasta, eggplant is used as the layers in between the meat, write me for a receipe if you are interested in that. Its tasty, and I know the bread is not paleo style, but today in eating bread to the lasagne.

 

About the pateau, I teamed up with my dear Friend Sylvia, and we will hopefully make a good plan. Its going to take some days I think.

 

 Im also thinking that this might just be what they call my ideal weight, who knows, I have been weighing this before I got pregnant for many years, so i might have to change my focus, so I wont be super crumpy, bitter mom with no energy. Just be me, happy full of energy still with a healthy life style and maybe with time it will change slowly slowly....

Hold om mig/Hold me...

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No one in life should go through getting diagnosed with cancer. No one

When I write about this, it makes my heart stop and I feel the lack of words to describe how it must effect a person and the persons family who get cancer. I have and had people close to me who went through this, survivers, strong, beautiful, amazing, smart, caring, loving people, who I never in my life thought would get cancer. I prayed my heart out for all of them and I still do, hoping that they survive and it will never come back again. Life just wouldnt be the same without them
Take a moment today and hold the people you love. Love more, hug more, pray more, hold more.

                                                          Today, tomorrow, forever.

Giving up???

Hahahhahhhahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, Did I get your attention?
Giving up, me seriuosly, just because I feel like puking eating broccoli and reached a plateau, accidently fell down in the cookiejaw, ate chocolate, cried my heart out, felt stupid lonely, blamed myself and laughed out loud, NO F.... WAY! Im in charge here.

Today went pretty good and I really wonder, from the numbers of how many people who reads my blog, that 4 times as many read it yesterday when I had a cheat day, compared to when its going really good. So im guessing good is not fun to read about, giving up is a better head line right?

Oh well, im not going to give you giving up, im going to keep going....

My sweet baby is sick, with bronchitis, so my energy is pretty low. Im kind of really really low on energy in general, lots of sickness, including me. Im hoping and praying for spring really soon, so I can get out, get some sun and and and. For know I might as well just work with what I got right?

Cheat day, aka, crazy work out at the gym, aka its sunday, so go relax for God sake....

So its sunday....

 I went to the gym, went running like a maniac for 30 minuts, biked out there and back, in a crazy windy weather, I almost got pushed over on my bike from a heavy side wind by the water. Not fun at all. You know its windy, when you are biking down hill and you feel like its biking uphill... Crazy! According to the calorie counter it should burn off around 900 calories all together... Weeeeeeee...

Day 12 was a rest day when it comes to my diet, since I have been on a plateau for the whole week almost, so im thinking what can I do. This is before pregnancy weight, so my body doesnt really want to give it up easily. I cant cut on the calories, since its already pretty low, so I have to change something else. For the next week I have crossfit on my plan, high intensity running, lets see how that is going! 

No snow storm tomorrow please!!! But then im thinking, hey, free work out! LOL

Plateau

 Its really not fun at all to reach a plateau, but when you know why, you know what to change. Somethings are not easy to change... Right now, its sleep that keeps me on a plateau and because im alone with my daugther, I have to accept, that im not able to change that right now. At least im not going in the wrong direction right?

Today, I got alot of sleep and I really feel good, but still im tired from a week with almost no sleep.

 My focus is still diet and im impressed that im able to keep on track, being so tired, and its the only time I like being stubborn, I know going back eating crap, I will feel like crap.

My goal for the week coming up will be, high intensity work out to boost metabolism, only for 30 mins, 3 times, I think monday, wednesday and friday, will be perfect... And for the rest of my time, I just need to catch up on sleep, rest and keep on track.

Day 11, 19 to go!

Dreams and determation

We all have dreams. But in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline, and effort.

Jesse Owens

Big dreams or small dreams, they can all come true, you just have to think about what you want to give to get there, if the effort is worth it, or you just want to keep dreaming. Just give it a try, you might find out its not for you, but then you tried and you will never regret trying. Sometimes the motivation is there, I promise you,  you will make mistakes, but when you do, learn from them, every single one of them. Get up, get stronger and be You. It will be worth if, if you want it enough.

Sleep....

I dont work with out sleep, im crazy tired, I kept on track today, biked 10 km at work.
My daugther has bronchitis, so now im just trying to survive.
Im going to bed early and there will be more when I get my sleep... Zzzzzzzzz Over and out

The food

Today im  going to show you my diet. They say that the diet is about 80 procent of the whole thing.
Every morning I start out drinking a glass of water, to replace the water I lost doing a good nights sleep. It helps me focus and keep on track. This is only one day, it could be different, and next week I will post pictures on how a "fastday" looks like, because it sure aint this pretty everyday...

Breakfast is the greatest part of my day, here Im eating blueberries, yogurt, some almonds, oats and raisins. Its a great source of Vitamins, proteins, fiber and calcium.

Oh I love to snack, this is how a good healthy snack could look like. Flatbread with chicken and cherry tomatoes. Yummi.

Lunch, another loved meal. This is way it could look, most of the time when im on the run, it does not look as fancy I promise.... But it contain most of what I eat every day. Carrots, cumcumbers, tomatoes, advokadoes, ryebread, eggs and lovely shimps....

After I work out im not always hungry, but most of the time I am, I always keep a snack in my back, just in case, so I wont get to low blood sugar, then im in trouble and tend to eat almost everything. A cocoamilk is always in my back, it can take most cravings instantly....

Dinner, I love Dinner to. Lets just make the conclusion, I love to eat and I love to eat healthy, this was my Dinner tonight. Pork Tenderloin, with lots of Veggies and the rest tiny bit of the advocado from earlier.

 

Evening snack look almost like mt breakfast. Low fat Yogurt, blueberries, almonds and some rich dark chocolate. I LOVE IT.....

So this was my day.

I had a short 30 mins work out to in the gym.
Got some help with the Squats, im getting stronger and stronger, not only my body, but also my mind. Not eating alot of sugar, gives me energy, the diet is great and im feeling better and better :)

Do it or shut up!

Im so tired of myself sometimes, I mean seriuosly, I dont know a person who can "argue" as much as me inside my head about if I should do a thing or not! I just realised how much energy I use on endless "conversations" about going to the gym, or not going to the gym. Eating chocolate or not eating chocolate, crochet or not crochet, cleaning or well, LOL, NOT cleaning.

So I made up my mind today, I either do it or stop thinking about it and using my energy productive instead of destructive! BOOM, I said it.

So I was crazy tired today, I mean I looked at the cake at work and I had to walk away, one bite and my day would have been even worse. Im sitting here, I got through the day not cheathing, I made it and I even got a tiny workout in. I LOVE home work outs because I can include my sweetheart and she just loves it when im on the floor doing silly things.

ABS
Sit ups 3 x 15
Side 3 x 15
Reverse 3 x15
PLANK 3 x 30 sec
Back extension 3 x 15
Cat and cow strechtes

Pilates leg excercises, you all know them, I did a crazy amount while watching PINGU! 
(I dont know the names)

Push ups 3 x 15
Squats 3 x 20
Lunges 3 x 20

Im thankful I started 7 days ago, I have 23 to go. They day it takes 21 days to make a habbit, so 14 days and this way of living is "just" a habbit... 23 days from now I will be very very thankful I started that day in March...

Stupid little things...

So here I am, just got home, made dinner for Abby, when I heard the news. A 4 month old baby girl was killed just down the road. Walking on a cold day with her mommy who is 3 years younger then me. I cant believe the pain and nightmare the parents must go through. All my prayers are with them tonight. My heart stopped and somehow I panic for a second, how, who, when, is Abby safe? I hurried to the daycare, knowing she was safe, but just to hug her and tell her that I love her very much. To tiny to leave this world, not even really been here yet. I pray there must be a bigger plan.

My problems seemed to vanish for a while and thank god for that. Actually right in this moment I dont have any, nothing compares to loosing a child. My stupid little problems will be stupid little things today. Light a candle and hugs your loved ones tonight. You never know when your time is up.

Less then ordenary...

Sometimes in life, you meet people who tells you something that sticks like glue.
The only thing you can do about it is say, hey, thats your opion and your view of how things are. The other day someone told me I was just like other ordenary girls.
So what is ordenary, really? Im just wondering if ordenary contains living in Greenland, USA, climbing a mountain, running a marathon and loosing around 60 pounds. I wanted to scream and shout to tell this person, IM MORE THEN JUST ORDENARY. But I didnt, I thanked him., cause I know im more then that. The reason why I thanked him was that he gave me the drive to move on and im going to complete this, because I can and because I wont be like the rest complaining and not doing it. I dont want to dream about it, I want to do it. Not tomorrow, not in a week, right here and now.

Stop complaining, stop making excuses, just do it, every single day....

This is a picture of me today, this is who I am and how I look and im proud of it. The only thing im changing is the way of living, my diet, excercise to live a healthy life and to show my baby daugther how to live a healthy life.

Everday I wake up, I ask myself, how can I be a better mom and a better person.

This road im walking right now is not easy. Im telling you I stumble quite often, but I get up again, brush the dust of, stronger for every time I fall.

Before...

I have always been used to workout, every single day almost. I love it, its a part of who I am. I love to get up very early, like 4-5 am to work out, I did it in Thule all the time.

So what happens when the gym is taken away from you?

What happens when you are not able to work, not even to get a job, not to see a gym, not finding the motivation to get up in the morning, You get FAT...

There is something about getting pregnant, and there is something going on when you add moving to another country, loosing everything you use to know, the groceries is different, fast food is sooo easy.

And Hey, everybody knows McDonalds right?

If you read the rest of my blog, you might see Im not 100 procent sure on how much weight I gained. I stopped when I reached 220 pounds I think, I dont even want to write down the number. I was embarassed, from being super fit to being crazy fat.
Dont get me wrong, I loved being pregnant, but still I hated the weight I gained, how heavy I was and how I was not even able to shave my legs.
After given birth, my belly looked like a defalted ballon, and how much fun is that? I looked at my crazy fit friends, whos bellies were nothing like mine. 

Right before I gave birth is measured: 124 cm around my waistline, I was used to 75 cm

And I know I shouldnt compare myself, but I did, but I grew with it, did what I had to do to get back in shape, slowly, getting my body back. Thats all I wanted, i wanted to feel great again, to feel attractive, to feel like me. Being best in Coreclasses was and is no longer something I can do, your abs feels floppy and useless after given birth.

One thing is for sure, and its kind of strange. My view on how I look at my body changed alot, I like it and accept it alot more. Look what I did? I carried an amazing little girl inside me (even though I for a moment was sure I gave birth to an alien) And im right here now working on it, what else can I do, im to tired of waking up thinking, why didnt I start a month ago, now im right here in the middle of the process, im actually doing it. If you doubt yourself, you should just do it....

Gosh what an adventure having a baby...

Tomorrow, after and now pictures...

The facts...

 Here is the facts:

 Im kind of happy my numbers went down, not much, but they are going down slowly.

 December 2012                                              March 2013
 Weight 79.8                                                    Weight 78.7
 BMI 25.2                                                         BMI 24.8
 Fat % 25.7                                                       Fat % 24.7

 Hey thats great right, going in the righ direction even though you didnt work to hard on loosing weight or fat %.

 Diet went great again, its going to be harder when I go to work next week, nurses LOVES CAKE.....

 Todays workout.

 Warm up

 KB swing 12 kilos 3 x 15
 Push ups 10 x 3
 Skip 50 x 3

 Chest workout
 Chest press incline 6- 8 kilos 3 x 15-12
 Chest press flyes 6 kilos 3 x 10
 Triceps 8 kilos 3 x 10
 Biceps curls 6 kilos 3 x 10
 Military press 15 kilos 3 x 10

 Still an easy way of starting, but I started, thats all that matters...

 Biked out to the gym and back home, which is about 45 minuts of biking...

 I love the gym, I really do, but I think its a shame that im the only girl sitting there in the weight area between 15 guys, who are not really doing anything. Im not sure its my kind of style anymore and I miss the crossfit gym, were there is no mirrors and people talk to eachother, not look at eachother in a weird kind of way! But who im I to judge right... ?

2 down, 28 to go!

 So today went really good. Motivation is very high and I feel great.
 Cutting down on carbs, is making fast results and I truly enjoy the feeling of not having a belly that is blowed up like a ballon!
 Im not feeling hungry at all and since yesterday im down 1 kilo ( 2 pounds) mostly water I think, due to not eating fastfood, sweets aso.

 The only focus today was diet, it went perfekt :)

  And hey you should try 30 days to...

 See you tomorrow, my plan is going to the gym, upper body work out...

30 dage, 1 dag

How much can you chance your body within 30 days?
You know you see all the pictures of before and after shots and I always think, thats amazing.
Why not me? So here I am day one...
Before I start, I want to tell I gained ALOT of weight when I had my baby girl, every pound was worth it, but ofcause it takes alot to get back on track. Biking around all day, being active in my job as a nurse made me loose around 20 pounds from when I got home to Denmark. Before that I lost around 30-40 pounds, thats about 60 pounds or 30 kilos.)
Now im below the before Birthweight, 79 kilos (174 pounds), but I still dont work out as much as I did in the states and my diet is not as clean.

Diet by Engel, my precious friend, who is wicked fit.

Training:
I always start with Squat, I loooove Squats. All I hate is the 30 guys running around in the gym, mostly doing chest, why is chestday like every day? Im just saying.....

Air Squats, ( no I dont go on the bike, because I already biked 20 minuts to get to the gym)
3 x 20,15,10

In between skipping as fast as possible 50 times 3 times

Squats with weightbar only
3 x 10
Squats with 10 kilo and weightbar ( yes im starting out SLOW)

I always do squats barefeeted or in fivefingers.

Deadlift with the same weight
3 x 10

3 sunsalutaions ( Yoga is perfect for a good stretch)

ABS
Regular 20 x 3
PLANK 30 seconds 3 times

And then biking home 30 minuts. ( remember I have a giant bike and its up hill all the way)

Easy way to start out. And hey, pictures will come! Im taking one every day to follow the process.


Over and out.....

Jo, Jeg kan!

Jo, jeg kan sgu!
Jeg startede den 24 dec med crossfit, jeg har ikke tabt et eneste kilo, ikke et eneste! Men jeg har tabt 5 cm, 1 på armene, 1,5 omkring maven, 2 om hofterne og 1,5 cm om brystet! Så jeg kan, jeg er ligeglad med vægten og vil gerne snarest ned for at måle min fedt % igen! Jeg har udeladt målet omkring mine lår, da jeg ikke kunne huske præcist hvor jeg målte sidst, men har nu fundet et punkt som jeg kan huske til næste gang. Næste gang bliver om en måned igen!
Jeg er gået igang med min bog, den er næsten færdig og den er så hudløst ærlig og fortæller uforsødet det jeg igrunden godt ved, men nu har jeg fundet troen på at jeg jo godt KAN. Jeg har fundet frem til at jeg er enormt bange for at fejle, ikke så meget overfor mig selv, mere overfor andre, derfor bryder jeg grænser og prøver mig selv af og skriver offentligt at jeg er på vej :)

Det sidste gravilitets kilo er væk og jeg har omtrent tabt mig ca 35 kilo! BUM
Jeg har ingen problemer med at træne, det elsker jeg og mere jo bedre og jeg har fundet en rytme hvor jeg kan være 30 minutter i fitness centeret for at give den max gas, 30 minutter er nok for mig til at få pulsen så højt op som overhovedet muligt og få trænet kroppen, hele kroppen og JA, det behøver ikke tage to timer hver dag, hvis man ikke har to timer. Giv den gas 30 minutter og du vil stadigvæk kunne se en forandring og 30 minutter kan alle sgu overskue! Jeg cykler også ca 10 km hver dag på en Christiania cykel, med min datter for det meste, til dagpleje, til arbejde, til fitness og hjem igen!

Jeg er alene med min datter, hver dag og alligevel får jeg det til at lykkedes, jeg gør alt hvad jeg kan for at hun kan have en god dag og hun er mere og mere glad, hun elsker når jeg er glad og derfor ved jeg at det jeg gør er det rigtige, så jeg bliver ved!

Og ja, der kommer billeder, bare ikke lige nu! Jeg er ikke færdig!

Crossfit

Crossfit gør mig glad fordi traeningen har et formål, så jeg kan bruge min krop og ikke bare sidder i en maskine. Jeg gør fremskridt når der traenes, jeg bliver bedre og kan mærke at tingene i hverdagen bliver nemmere. Det kan feks vaere at cykle på arbejde, at løfte min datter, at løfte varer når jeg har handlet ind mm, det gør mig faktisk glad. Det gør mig dog også træt og sulten naturligvis, så det nemmeste for mig er at have en plan, så jeg ikke falder i ved siden af, men alle mulige ting jeg har lyst til at spise.
Min krop ser allerede anderledes ud, min mave er fladere, mine arme føles strammere, så som resten af min krop.
Under min gravilitet med Abigail tog jeg over 30 kilo på, hvilket jo er en stor belastning på min krop og mit sind, jeg er nede på min før gravilitets vægt, men jeg vil uden tvivl gerne ned 4+5 kilo mere, som synes jeg være den evige kamp!
Jeg leger lige nu med hvad der er der holder mig fra at komme derhen, hvilke undskyldninger det er jeg bruger overfor mig selv, så som, nu har jeg spist en ting usundt, så kan jeg lige så godt æde alt hvad jeg kommer i nærheden af, el det er også synd for mig at jeg har nattevagt, den forkerte tid på måneden osv osv. 80 procent holder jeg den sunde linie og det er nok også godt nok, bare ikke lige i den her periode, hvor jeg gerne vil nedad i vægt.
Den 15 Januar udkommer Krisztina Marias bog, BANG, som handler om netop det, dårlige undskyldninger og træning, masser af personlige historier, succes, den køber jeg og bliver forhåbenligt klogere på hvad der sker inde i mig og hvorfor jeg ikke helt kan holde det med kosten...

Januar!

Et nyt år er begyndt, egentlig ser dagene ud som de altid har gjort. Alligevel er der et eller andet magisk ved Januar. Man er faelles om en ting og der er heldigvis i de fleste tilfaelde at blive bedre til et eller andet, tabe sig, spise sundt, listen er uendelig. Sagen er det at de fleste ikke kommer igennem Januar før deres nye vane er passe, det er vildt aergeligt og her taler jeg også mig selv. Jeg overholdte ikke mine nytårsfortsaetter fra sidste år, fordi der kom en skilsmisse og en flytning i vejen, jeg blev slået ud af kurs og det tror jeg for de fleste er forklaringen på hvorfor man ikke fortsætter.
Hvad kan jeg så gøre for at ændre dette i det nye år og hvad vil du selv gøre for at ændre dig selv, så du overholder dine fortsaetter?
Jeg har besluttet mig for at skrive dem ned som jeg plejer også har jeg nu sat evalerings datoer ind i min kalender, for at bringe dem op i min bevisthed hele tiden, så jeg holder ved, for jeg vil holde ved, det hjælper mig enormt meget at have en snor at gå efter og vide nogenlunde hvor jeg skal hen af lige nu, hvor tingene er svære.

1. Første projekt er at gøre noget ved den store gæld jeg har, efter tabet på salg af lejlighed i København, hvilket er svært at gøre noget ved med en sygeplejerske løn, men jeg arbejder på sagen og når planen har taget form løfter jeg sløret her for hvad den er.

2. Jeg er gået igang med at træne crossfit, hvilket er noget jeg gerne har villet i meget længe, men af forskellige årsager er det ikke lykkedes, før end en fantastisk person har ladet mig være med og have min datter med når der trænes, hvilken befrielse og skønt er det at træne igen et par gange om ugen og ikke kun hver torsdag!

To ting for Januar også går projektet videre ind i Februar, hvor der skal evalueres og tages ansvar for at der er blevet gjort noget, bare et eller andet og føre forsætterne videre måske over i noget andet!