A different approach

 I rather die trying then regretting, right?
 My father once told me: if you have doubts, do it anyway. Sometimes I think he regrets telling me that. Im not sure when we had that conversation, but I often use those words when I have to make a decision about something.
 If I combine the 2 sentences, it kind of makes the frame of how I live my life. I want to try everything before I can tell, hey, it didnt work, or hey, this is great, I did it. Both ways no matter how you twist or turn it, is very important for me in my life. Both ways loosing or winning, gives me a lesson in life. The funny things is that I often discover, its not the goal that gives me the lesson, its on the way, the road, the travel, the flight, the people, everything else but the actual goal, that is teaching me what there is to learn. If I stumble, I get up, learn, keep going, maybe not in the same direction, but I keep going. One doenst go without the other, I need the goal to keep going, I need the road to get to the goal.

 Here I am at day 19, I learned, that hormones are really difficult to control, and im not sure if I want to control them. Not that I want to give in and go crazy, but really, lets just face the facts, a different approach on what healthy life style is for my body, is the way to go. So cutting down on calories might be ok, excercise might be ok, but with the life that I have right now, almost never getting a break from either work or a day just to myself, it seems like an almost impossible thing to do...
There is so many things I want to do, but they just have to wait a little, until I find my way in life in generel.

Small steps everyday, listening to what i really need and remembering what worked before will probaly be the way to go. I really need energy right now, not cutting down on it.
Next week im trying gluten free bread, brownies and porridge, healthy oils and smooties. It worked before, so I wont "puke" over the carrots or feel hungry like almost every 15 minuts, its to stressfull for me right now :) Remembering its about healthy living, giving my body energy, focus on something else then sitting home being sad on a saturday evening.

Hope you are having fun out there tonight...