Its been 2 years

So I really can't believe this. Today, all of a sudden I realize, its been 2 years since I moved back to Denmark from the states... I have been taking a break from studying, looking at pictures from the time I arrived in Denmark and until today. So much has happened since then. Its with a very strange feeling, how much my life has changed, how much my daughter has chanced and very much of it to the better.

Its been rough getting a divorce. I would lie if I told you, I didn't miss my life in the states sometimes, because I do. I miss my house, my friends, my family, my beloved wienerdogs and my things that are still in the house. Sometimes I'm not even sure how it all went wrong, but I have my diaries and when I look at them, I have no doubt it was the right thing to do for me and for my daughter. I can't take things back, what is done, is done. There is only one way and that is moving forward...

And look how far I have come... Two years ago all I had was 3 suitcases, my daughter and 2 strollers.  My parents picked me up at the airport in Hamburg. I was filled with shame over what happened to me. I was getting divorced. I hated myself for going home, but It would have "killed" me staying.
I had nothing, no money, no job, no daycare, no bed, no clothes, but already the next day I had to look at a place to live and I'm blessed to come from a country which takes care of their citizens. After a month, I had a temporary job as a nurse, a place to live, a daycare for my daughter. Times were not easy, there was a lot of hiddens tears and trying to stay strong to show my daughter that we were going to get through this. Every single day, everything got a little better. Step by step. With help from my parents, my sister, brother and friends. If you don't know how thankful I am for this, I will let you know now. I love you to the stars and back...

So here I am, 2 years later and I can't believe how far I have come. Im sitting in my apartment studying to become an ICU nurse. I have the most amazing co-workers. I got pst of my friends back. My family are here. I just got my paycheck and it looks pretty good. ( thats a lie, its freaking awesome) My body is stronger then it was, when I was 24, my mind is stronger. My boyfriend is simply amazing (yes, you are). I couldn't ask for much more, nothing but having my sweetheart beside my and the countdown is 17 days. 90 days is gone now, time has been flying. She is having a great time with her dad, he is a bit tired though, so Im guessing it will be my turn to be tired very soon :) I wouldn't have done anything different, because what I have done, has made me the person I am today. I have learned so much on the way, even though the road was bumpy for me, it is a fun ride. I wish for more bumpy rides and hoping that the best days of my life haven't happened yet.

Little blue eyed girl, who always wants me to do yoga with her on FaceTime and play peek a boo over and over again and read the same story 100000 times. I love you so much my heart brakes when I think of you. You are in my heart every second of the days.... I will see you soon....